I finally got a marksmen badge.
WAhahhaa might seem merepek to u but hey, its just an experience and something that i have achieve.
i check my friendster account. Damn that Zuraidah. She bad mouth about me again. actually she did far more shit than me.
yes i do ever lie to her before. but hey most of the time i lie to her was becos i wanna go out wif my friends.
ok about the neighbour part. i explained to her already. damn it. it was after i found out that she kenal2 wif someone.
went out wif him stuff like dat.. many THINGS SHE DID BEHIND MY BACK.
i purposely let her check my hp wif the neighbour of mine sms in it. i wanted her to feel the pain and jealousy.
damn it i explained to her. she cried about it. she understood why i did it.
and also i apologise to my neighbour already about somehow using her. but i didnt go out wif my neighbour or do anything behind her back.
I can say many things about my ex girlfriend. many things that people will be surprise about it. but i refuse to.
i still have the heart to let her lead her life normally without people thinking bad about her.
but now being the usual ungrateful person, she bad mouthed about me.
ok lah i can understand that she kinda piss off by the way i write in my testimonial. but i didnt bad mouthed about her.
i just saying dat i dont need her anymore. there no point of her trying to make me realise how precious she is to me.
when the zuraidah i know is long gone.
wat appear in front of me was a person who has the same look, same name but a different heart.
arh damn it. at least for nurul, she giving hyder another chance. i believe that she must have done the right thing.
coz she knew hyder more than i do. ok lah she told me that hyder dont like me to stick around.
maybe i shouldnt. i know how it feels like having ur gf to go out wif another guy. but hey, i went out wif her as a friend only.
and i asked her about her status, she was single at that time.. so dont get the wrong idea people.
i come clean k... unlike some person i know.
at the end of the day... hey i wasted close to four years. YES
but i learned a lot. there are just some people not worth it to give all u have.
there are quite a few personal thought going on in my mind.
but hey i have to focus about finishing ns and getting that degree.
get a great job... that is my focus.
i want to show to that zuraidah that i can do it without her.
she told me that i am too dependant on her eh? buat dia my bank bergerak eh..
ok takper. she badmouthed about me to my ex colleague, my friends.
i had my ups and down. but i know upon knowing her... i did my best.
i realli gave everything. she seems to forget about it.
nvm.
one day she know dat there are many great guy out there.
many that have many ways to charm u. by looks, gift, jokes, ideas... stuff like that.
but how many are willing to put up wif ur perangai?
how many of them really know u well?
who is able to take good care of u?
who can u trust to be faithful to u for a long time?
i bet u never asked urself about this right?
we shall see k..
it was a mistake for to do shit behind my back and not knowing the reasons for it.
kinda foolish if u were to ask me. u went back to ur good old days. please arh zuraidah. u told me that u wanted to settle down.
but i seriously dont think that u are ready for it arh.
enough talking about her..
peace out.